I’ve always kept a journal/diary and last month I finished the diary I started when I graduated from college in 2007. In it I wrote about my first job, losing that job then temping around until the economy really collapsed and jobs dried up. During that journal’s time frame, the SGT and I moved in together (2008), my dad passed away (March 2009), I got married (May 2009), and then got cancer (2010). I finished chemo (2011), started this blog (2011) and moved away (2012). I’ve had a really, ah, exciting life in those five years and it felt good finishing that book.
This year, I’ve decided to try a different form of journaling. I’ve always been intrigued by art journals but scared off because I’m not confident in my art skills. Well, this is the year that I’m doing something scary. I’m going to keep an art journal. I’ll have my paper journal for more freedom to be introspective but the art journal is going to help sharpen my visual art skills.
Here’s the story behind the page: I’ve been listening to A Tale of Two Cities from the CraftLit archives. I’ve never been a fan of Charles Dickens and I tried reading this on my own but I gave up halfway through. It’s usually the first half of book 3 in his works that I tend to lose interest. I realize he was getting paid by the word practically and the middle half of his books tend to be less plot and more…filler? I’m hoping that hearing it read will remedy my problem.
The phrase “recalled to life” is from the story. It is the message that Mr Lorry sends when he finds that his former client, Monsieur Mannette is still alive, he’s just been locked up in the Bastille for 18 years. The phrase has struck a chord with me. It’s been two years this month (on the 15th) that I finished chemotherapy. It’s now that I feel like I’m really alive; that I’ve been “recalled to life”. My life has more direction and honesty in it than it did before.
Cancer gave me this wonderful gift of making me think long and hard about who I am and what I want from life. Now that I’ve got my life back from the brink of death, I feel like I’m finally the Vanessa I’ve always wanted to be. So this year’s motto is “Recalled to Life”. It seems really fitting for the first page in my art journal, too.
Do you have a motto for this year? Is there a word you can use to describe 2012?
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