I’ve been blogging about my weight gain and my current struggle with anxiety and depression. I’ve been slowly doing the things I’ve needed to do except for one big thing: exercise. I haven’t done any martial arts since September 2009. I have been sedentary for one year. Obviously, this was not by choice but I haven’t really broken a sweat since February.
So yesterday, I finally decided that I was going to just do it. I was reaching for my wallet to pay for a subscription for Interweave Press’ Piecework Magazine when I stopped myself. I had just finished updating this blog and whining about not owning a single pair of jeans that fit to my sister when it really hit me. I was going to go for a run, damnit, and if/when I did that subscription would be my reward. And I stuck to my word and now the newest issue is on its way to me!
I did day 1 of the Couch to 5k program which is a 5 minute warm up walk, 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for 20 minutes and end it with a 5 minute cool down walk. I didn’t really jog too often (I was on a treadmill and the fastest I went was 4.8 miles per hour) because I realized just how much “damage” my endurance and cardio-vascular health has taken this year. I’m chalking it up to a combination of chemo and bedrest as to why it was much harder doing the program this time than when I was just a couch potato. It’s made me realize that while in many ways, I’m not sick any more but in other ways I still am.And if my cancer were to reoccur, I wouldn’t be able to handle any sort of treatment at the fitness level I’m at now. I didn’t really think of things that way, but our good friend Lee pointed that out.
Now, I have a bigger reason to move my butt. After some expenses have been paid for, I’ll be on the serious hunt for a new martial arts studio and I need to be at a better fitness level than where I am now at if I want to have fun in class. Or just not die from exhaustion. Now that I’m getting back into running, I need to knit up some accessories but I have no idea what would be. Any suggestions from the peanut gallery are most welcomed!